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1/29/2008
noone but me from URL @ 4:29 PM It feels odd to be online in the afternoon! Haha, goooood afternooon! :D I just rotted away the whole of today really literally just sitting in bed & slacking online :0 Okay, it can't really be considered the whole of today cos i only woke up at 1.30, nyeheh. Oh but, wth. I had fun last night! Thank you to all of you! I really wouldn't mind more late nights, teehee :D You know, i have things to do. Like the SOP, or my SEAn History hw, but i dunno why i have this totally 'i realllllly can't be bothered less' attitude (now), haaaaahaa. & im supposed to go to Tampines later on but Nesaar's been singing at his stooopid Kbox & now its raining :x & im just rambling on and on about nothing at all, haha Im enoying school btw! :D Lovely class, interesting teachers & woahh lessons! (Lit in the treehouse, about self-expression which = talking!) I hope Ryan & Ralph can stay on.. & i realised that like what Nurin said my first impressions reallllllyyy suck. I judge people too fast, which is baaaad. Thank God i don't make my opinions known otherwise i'd have to be apologising to manymany people, haha. Okay, i'm going to do something purposeful now, ciao` 'Cause this is real, and this is good. It warms the inside just like it should, but most of all it's built to last. 1/28/2008 noone but me from URL @ 1:45 AM Oftentimes we give issues that are merely trivial more attention than they should be given. Sometimes, that wouldn't be considered paranoia, but more of want, greed, or ambition. Like say, overrating a relationship? Reasons could be, insecuirty? The want for someone to call your own. When truely there lies no real love in the relationship; or maybe just that love which you choose to believe exists. Uhm, just my random 3 am thought. - I can't wait for this week, i don't know why. I think there are gna be many good days! Likelikelike, Today! (tonight more like it) Wednesdayyyyy! (parade!) THURSDAY OMG THURSDAYYYY! :D :D (happybdaymann!) & Friday! (rainbows dinner!) & next week will be Awesome too cos of the CNY break! AHAHA! People turning older toooo ehhh! Eggggcitinggggg :D - Im enjoying the online conversations im having now! HAHAH! I bet my mom thinks im mad cos im LOL-ing to the LAPTOP now HAHAH! :D - im gna be a zombie tmr mann, dammit. 1,2,3,4 tell me that you love me more. 1/27/2008 noone but me from URL @ 10:49 PM ZOMG I CANT BELIEVE IT LAHHHH! After like 3 freakin months, IM DOING HOMEWORK AGAINNNNNNNN! ): ohmymaceroni laaaa, i think its really damn upsettting. & when i told adlin that i have hw, she gave me this amused look like "oh i forgot there was such a thing called homework" & then aft that of course she sniggered. HOMEWORKKK LA DAMMIIIIT! I HATE YOUUUUU! & its not even like normal hw. Its like -weird hw ): Like my hw for KI is to figure out how the finger multiplication works. LIKE WHAAAAATTTTT ): okay shit, subject of today's rant, HOMEWORK sucks ): okay back to USA & USSR whatnot. boooohooooooo! 1/26/2008 noone but me from URL @ 10:05 PM BONECRUNCHERRRR! I never thought i'd say this but i need the bonecruncherrrrr! ): Initally i had one of those trips that makes your ankle hurt but gets better after while. Then during soccer Gen kicked me WHAMBAMALAKAZAM at the same part, which hurt quite a bit, but i got over it. & yest i did some ball stunt thing & fell & kraakk went my ankle. Now its all fat & swollen & painful again ): so i need the bonecruncher to make me cry, but make it right again. (too bad the cyber bonecruncher closed shop huh, HAHAHA! open again ah!) & i've an unpro ankle-breaker-in-disguise who's offering to crunch my bones for me. No wayyyyy man! I will KICK yr balls, mwhahaha. eyeballs! LAPPY! I got a NEW LAPPPYYYY! HAHAHAHAHAHAH :D Its Sony Vaio & its white & i like it veryvery much! Its making me grin ilke an eeediot to this beegfattcomputer. :D it would be hard work literally paid off, haha. So this should be my last post from this com. Uhm, ME! I've really been a happy kid for many days now! (: I cant wait for Thursday! (: (: (: starlight starbright, first star i see tonight. i wish i may, i wish i might, have the wish i wish tonight.
noone but me from URL @ 1:41 AM I'll meet you tonight on top of the world, Going back to Cedar among the Phenomenal class of 2007 felt good. But it would have felt much better if we were at the other school; the one that felt like home. Anywayy, so yeap, collected the results- THE BEEEEEG RESULTS that we've been waiting for, for 4 freakin years. CONGRATS TO CEDAR'S PHENOMENAL CLASS OF 2007- MSG of 9.9 = POWERRRR! CONGRATS TO MY DEAR 4I 2007- MSG of 7.9 = OMGYOUGUYSROCKLIKEHELLLLLLL! & CONGRATS TO DELTA 07- WHOS THE MAN? DELTA! Wellll, we showed them all, didn't we? Thank you to every singe one who wished us luck! :) Rupini & Adlin helped me to keep the promise that i made about shoving my results in someone's face. IN YOUR FACE, FATASS. & Rupini also helped me to announce/still announcing my results to the whole world, thanks ah! (: & i can't believe i was so freaaaakiiinnnn stooooopid with what i did. Next year, sec 3s please open yr envelopes before telling everyone how much you got :x Other than that, im reallllllly proud of all my friends for doing well! We've done it mann, over & done with. Congrats. As Syimaholmes said, done with Mr Os, get ready for Mrs As, HAHA! Now i hope we all accept what we've got with grace and make the most for it. Cos the only way onwards, is the way forward :) - Thank yous go to Him, for being there every step of the way. Everytime i needed strength, nerve, or simply courage, he was there. Keeping me through the late nights, keeping me healthy, keeping me strong & keeping me by his side. I lay my life for you. My parents who never once nagged at me to do my homework or study. My mom always gave me my space, did all my housework for me without nagging or complaining a single bit. She cooked whenever i shouted i was hungry, tucked me in everytime i fell asleep on the sofa & was always there telling me how much she loved me. My dad always gave me study tips & advices. Picked me up from school & sent me home so i wouldnt be too tired. Drove miles just to make sure i was okay & had food. My teachers who have never put me down, but always offered ideas on how to improve. Who stayed back till late to make sure we understood everything before going home. Who most importantly, never gave up on us. & lastly, my friends. Whom without i would have given up long ago. Cos if there was 1 reason why i kept going, it was because i knew that i wasnt in it alone. We did it all together, from the hw to the studying to the stress to the bigfatOs. Platoonmates, classmates, schoolmates & other friends :D - Today i finalised a decision, i hope i have no regrets. Went out with A11 for dinner at Pastamania then went to ECP with Jolyn, Susannah & Ryan. Wanted to go cycling but thr wre only overnight bikes left. So we just sat along the breakwaters, took pictures & star-gazed. It was a reallllly lovely night. Cloudless with the stars stretching on endlessly & the moon was really huge & orange in colour! Picture perfect! reminded me of you. :D i had a good time. I hope most of us stay on. - I realise that i've realllly been missing many people. It was damn good to see everyone again on Thursday! :D i cant wait for the 31st (OMG!) & the next 4i outing! - & it seems like many people are sick. Eh aiyo, eat yr veges & drink water la deyyyyy. Please takecare! - I feel free :) I still have the strong urge to hug you! soon, prettyplease. And we can do anything, we can be anything. as real as it seems, you're only in my dreams. 1/23/2008 noone but me from URL @ 1:10 AM This is just a little something Abby wrote in my orange notebook on 18 August 2006. Day 1 i talked about getting out and how my worst fears were letting out. She said, "why not put a new address on the same onld loneliness?" and breathing just passes the time, until we get old and die. And talking's just a waste of breath and living's just a waste of death. So why put a new address on the same old loneliness and this is me and you and you and me until we've got nothing left. Nope im not suicidal, im pretty high on life actually :D Its 0119 hours now, which leads me to say that im going to be fighting the Z monster during the econs lecture later, woweee! :D :D Haha, it looks so plastic. happpyyyyygayyyybananananandayyyyyysss! Its like a mantra i have to chant everyday now. i just want to break you down so badly, in the worst way. 1/20/2008 noone but me from URL @ 11:01 PM I had a good time tonight with my mom & bro! (: At home my mom & bro fought to play the piano, my dog & i fought over my mom's bedroom slippers. (my mom tried playing rihanna's umbrella & my bro played old mac donalds had a farm. I almost died laughing!) & we all did house work with music blasting from the hall with my bro & me singing our lungs out. Then we went to "No signboard seafood" restaurant for dinner! Haha, the way we attacked the crab was hilarious. & years ago, my bro & i used to fight over the pincer, this time he graciously offered it to me! :D dinner was shiok! On the walk home we passed by the syf f.u.p, the empty space in front of the grand stairs. For a moment or two i just stood there and stared. Then suddenly my mind flashed back to the small tree we all huddled under for shade, where we fixed our bayonets onto the rifles, practiced our "one check one check bang" in whispers, how we were so macho-ly low & we'd all laugh at the high pitched np, exactly how & where we did the cheer before marching in, the staircase we all camwhored at. Seriously, it was damn dark at around 10+, but i could see it all happening in that deserted area like as though it was just yesterday. The stadium just looks so damn wrong all dark and lifeless. Laaadeeeedaaaaaaaaaaa. Later bro & i ran around screaming doing the aeroplane pose till my mom got annoyed. Haha! Competed who could scream the highest, lowest, loudest; who could burp the loudest, whistle the longest and whatnot allll the way home. We also duckwalked along an ulu road & i was screaming for a taxi for damn long; it never came. I even tried climbing a lampost, HAHA! Gosh, i felt so damn high! :D I really enjoyed myself tonight! Now, for a week of school. -peace. when darkness turns to light, it ends tonight.
noone but me from URL @ 1:11 AM Hello all earth-lings. It is 0111 hours now. Thats a kinda nice number, but i like 6 more. I had typed a longnonglongnonglooong post about my week just now but i've decided to save it as a draft. My memories! Today at soccer training we year 1s did a 4k jog. & so i told myself like what i always do before a long jog- "sarah, if you're a ncc cadet you better run properly. if you dare give up or think about giving up, you are not a ncc cadet". & almost automatically the NCC song started playing in my head the whole 4k jog. & then i thought- this really counts for sth mann. How NCC has changed my life. One of the biggest takebacks for me would be- mind over matter; the only limits that exist are in your mind. It's changed my life yo. There's only a few more days till the results but i feel like going -dammit, just give it nowwwww. I just want to know, make a decision & move on. My OGmate was saying that this period, this last week, would be like living the dream. After that, when we get our results the reality starts. I realise how much sense she made. Laadeedaatime is gna end soon and we're gna have to make a decision & stick by it for the next 2/3 years. It annoys the hell out of me. Like, reallly. Ah well. I just told someone to suck it up & deal with it. Right back at me. 6 is still a nice number though! (: & water still allures me quite a loooot. Im gna make running by the beach at night a new hobby! (: & im still an believer of fate. Chimpanzee met Gorilla yesterday, hahaha! & today kathleenkong got all high on me on msn! HAHA! Its been ages since i LOL-ed to the computer like that mann. I miss my platoonmates & classmates & schoolmates quite terribly. & zaferin is in India so i cant even contact her la wlauuuu. & although this is quite disgusting to say, i cant wait for results day to see everyone again! Im gna pon school & go to Cedar for flagraising with Nish :D & i got scared like hell when my mom clicked me online. Like, whaaaaat! Tech-no-logy. Nish says she wants me to fall so that she can laugh the loudest. She says she might even push me so that i fall. Adlin says she found our old neoprint which says "punk'd!" HAHA. OMG. I miss everything like crazy hell. i hate this feeeeeeeling mannsxz. & i think i ate coffee icecream which was damn nice but i dunno how im gna fall asleep now. :D Astalavista, baby. (HAHA!) the dawn is breaking, a light shining through. 1/13/2008 noone but me from URL @ 12:15 PM  RANDOM PICTURE POST! Picture title: Pissed. Faces to take note off: Nurin & Yara. Suggested reaction to picture: HAHAHAHAH! :D i still miss Syf, it was the Best. Anyway, im going out to meet the 4i kids for lunch soon! :D :D Then going to do something that i hope i wont regret :x Then going to church :) Then booking in for camp! :D Yesterday didn't go according to plan but i still had a lovely day! Meeting & met YOU!, (pleasant surprise) lunch with Central peeps, (talk talk talk) Esplanade with Rupini & Akmal (talk laugh talk sleep) & then we visited Nurin at Best Denki. (drummed & pianoed) :D & the soccer girls won their match too! Sus played tooo! :D Today shall be a gooooood day too! I could get used to this you know, happy gay days! I like :) the secret of the world is written in the stars, im carrying your heart in mine.
1/12/2008 noone but me from URL @ 1:58 AM GOOD MORNING! :D Im in a good mood as i've started my day off laughing, HAHA. & later today's gna be a good day cos im gna meet people i miss :) yipeeeee! School's going fine. Today was a horrrrrrid maths & econs day, ew! I like days with Lit & KI! :) I still gotta catch up in hist lessons though. Im just damn glad i can say "good riddance" to sciences. MWAHA. & KI is really interesting, i shall blog about it another time though. Anw my class is quite nice, small and cosy. 3 we-call-them-weird-but-1's-not-that-weird guys & Leonard are the only guys. Oh and the not weird guy, Ryan, is from NCC! He remembers me from specs course! He was from Cheryl's platoon. I don't remember him though, oops. But anw, its quite sad really cos Leonard always ends up hanging around with us girls, hahaha. & i realise i tend to hang out with the IP kids more which looks odd cos i'll be the only blue among the beige. Haha. They're quite convinced that i'll be their classmate even after results. i only dare pray. ah well, i hope we all bond more! & the more impt thing on my mind is soccccerrrrr. I reallllly realllly like the sport. The CCA's awesome, the game and the people. But today the coach was talking about committment & that just made me feel "ahhh dammit". :x i don't know how yet but im gna try for the best of both worlds. Its all about balance baby. Im gna rock. Eh suria narmo & rupini! Lets go train togetherrrr! :D Okay, im still in a pretty good mood & pretty wide awake though its 0224 hours at the moment. I shall upload pictures to my friendster, just for the fun of it :) -12 days. -i think you've got another friend): HAVE A HAPPY GAY BANANANANA DAY! cry me a river. 1/10/2008 noone but me from URL @ 12:13 AM School school schooooool! I actually had homework to do today. It was just basic Amaths but it got me damn annoyed cos i've forgotten how to do the simplest of things already. Sheeeeshkebabs! Anw, i like my class! 8A11. 16 of us, 4 guys only! HAHA. If i stay on in VJ & continue my stream, these would be the people who'll be by my side for the next 2 years. But, uh, haha i dunno about my stream. I attended my first Hist tutorial today & i felt so dumb cos everyone knew stuff about Nationalism & Revolutionary nationalism and whatnot; except for me. I was praying that Ms Goh wouldn't call my name & i was extraordinarily quiet during that lesson, haha. All my teachers are pretty nice. We did a poem on mushrooms growing from shit for our first lit lesson. But uh, hahaha i keep nodding off during lectures. Oops. I doubt its cos im sleepy cos whenever i take out my phone to message i become wideee awake. Heeee :D & CCA! I got into socccerrrrr! :D I've always wanted to join soccer but the only thing that stopped me was that i was afraid i wouldn't be able to commit. Im still afraid that i cant, so i still dunno. But i reallyrealllyreallllllly want to :x Other than soccer, im interested in ODAC too. But uh, see how. I'll have to decided by tmr cos there's soccer training on Fri. & then i went back to Cedar! :D With Nurin & Rupini for parade, but we met sooo many other ex-sec4s there. Twas good to see familiar faces again, despite the unfamiliar grounds. Talked to a couple of teachers too. & i realise how much i miss Cedar! Today after a long time i cried laughing! HAHA. i missed the cadets tooo! We 3 went for dinner then headed home. - I was walking Nurin to Kallang mrt station & we met my mom, hahah. Nurin started playing merry-g0-round with my ohsoharmless doggie, L. & then she threatened to bring a cat near me. & she called the cat like this- "AH CHOOT CHOOT CHOOOT!" HAHAHAHHAHAHAH OMG! I burst out laughing so damn hard mann. Like whaaaaat? Ah choot choot chooot? HAHAHHAHA. Damn funny. But my mom probably thinks we're crazy, mwahah. & then yesterday. Chimpanzee came and did monkey sounds to me too. Sth like "OOH OOH AHH AHH" HAHAHAHAHAHHAA! That made me LOL damnnn long too. & today during my lectures i thought abt the rtd monkey sounds and almost burst out laughing again. HAHA! I think tmr(later) i'll think of the chimpanzee & Nurin's cat sounds and probably laugh to myself. HAHA. Which brings me to say, the past 2 days have been goooooood :D I have been laughing and smiling and having a hell of a time! I really think friends are damn precious. THANK YOU for being my friend! still counting though-10days. There's Pe tmr & i havent hung my shirt out to dry after washing :x My blouse is still wet too :x I can't wait for the 14th! :D But i can wait to miss school; and soccer trainings, oh no! ): Alright, sayo nara! (HAHAHAH i want to laugh cos i just thought of sth else someone else said in Jap) you caught me offguard, now im running and screaming. 1/07/2008 noone but me from URL @ 9:33 PM VJC's Orientation! Day 1 I felt so damn scared cos i was the only Cedarian in my sub-og. Thesifer, part of Theodore. But anw, no one was smiling much except for the OGLs & i felt damn scared. Well, eventually we did talk and got to know each other; but probably because we were lacking in familiarity that the day was not that fun. A og mate got really school sick & i missed Cedar so bad. I got messages from so many people moaning that they missed Cedar too. But i did have fun overall. Sub-standard cheering, silly but funny games haha. Day2 I went back resolved to be an enthu cuckoo even if it meant throwing face; & the day was so much better! we all talked to each other more & felt more comfortable. Met our senior class too. My class is 08A11. Lit, History, Maths, Econs & KI. Honestly, im damn intimidated by my class, but i'll stop at that. Its a small class though-16. (: Then we played games, cheers & all the usual stuff. But day 2 was definitely damn fun! All of us bonded & had a good time. Went out for OG dinner to paya lebar, talked more & shared our first impressions about each other. DIG THIS! THEY ALL THOUGHT I AM INTELLECTUAL LOOKING! HAHA. But i mean, i am intellectual, so.. hahaha. Then to end the day, we did Cedar cheers. Us & the J2s! Damn powerrrr! Thats when i really lost my voice. Billy banjah-ed then cheered our lungs out. Cedar is love. Day 3 Day 3 was a Blaaaaast! Wet games day! By this time we were all close to each other already so it was random spontaneous fun! (: Played the funniest, weirdest, silliest but funnest games! haha. Got terrrrribly wet, haha. Cheered and shouted and whatnot. My voice was gone man! Then summed up the school orientation & we went out for OG dinner again. This time to marina square. Packet-ted food sat along the steps and ate. Talked, joked & played all the lame games. It was really good for bonding & duh, damn fun. :D Went home late mann! hahah. Mass Dance at Suntec! Met Thesifer earlier to hang out. Oh & i bumped into quite a few people. Ma'am Xiao Wei, Cherie, Mdm Audra & a couple of cedarians. Well mass dance was damn fun. Best part was that it rained! So we were all playing choochoo train, screaming, cheering & dancing in the rain around the fountain of wealth at suntec! :D Then went out with OG for a bit & then met Nuuriiiiinnn at around 10. But too bad, nurin didnt have luck, HAHA. Had dinner, talked awhile then left. Oh i felt like her boyf cos i was all macho & she all feminine. Feminine looking only though, hahah! Got home late again! Sea Regatta! At ecp! :D was Aweesomeee! There was a killjoy in the morning but i dont think anyone really cared. Got wet, sandy & dunked mann! The games were diff & damn fun too. But the getting wet part was the best! hahah. Everyone was scheming to dunk everyone. & thennnn, our orientation ended. Was supposed to go our for lunch with the OGL, but laaadeeedaaaa i wound up at home & watched coach carter. Thank you to you 3 who helped me! (: I owe ya'll. - Ah well, overall im glad im at VJ :D No regrets at all. But im even more happy that all my friends are happy at this point of time in whichever jc they're at, job they're doing, days they're slacking. I just kinda miss everyone & i cant wait to meet them. & i hear the results are gna be out within the month which is crazyyyy. But yeah, reality. My goal still remains, but i don't know the same about the future. - I have so many breaks between periods & my days end late. Like tmr i have pe at 430 or so. Like, whaaaat. :x (i like making this face) & Im in a dilemma as to which CCA to join. I want sth thats not so time consuming, but fun. & next week i am going to miss one whole week of school, which leaves me to say that i'm damn scared. But im looking forward to the 14th eitherways (: - This is random. I think water is alluring; very alluring. Like i always feel tempted to jump in and swim everytime i stare at water for too long. Which is quite dangerous i think. But i seriously think water is alluring; especially at nights. :D - & this is not so random. I have a lot of things on my mind that make me feel like running away. I hate not knowing & yet i dont. Time will tell wont it? Thank you. I love my friends simply for being who they are. In fact, somedays i feel they're all i need. Them & the bro & the extended family. ciao. and i couldn't tell you, but im telling you now. 1/05/2008 noone but me from URL @ 12:50 AM RANDOM PICTURE UPDATE.  Aiseyy man. *Salutes. Whassup yo? Zee Mermaid Dress works for us.  Fullerton. Testimony of our bet due in 3 years!  Twister at Rupini's house on Deepavali! Wildddd!  Familiar black shirts, burnt faces, messy hair & one crazzyyy smile after midnight :D2 years dont seem too long ago.  We liked only the chair Adlin was sitting on. This is Love.  "You just look plain stupid & Nish looks irritating" said Nicole. Work sucks, we know. ZOMGG! You're on candid cameraaaa!  Let the good times rolllll :D Past, present & future.  Bang Bang, I shot you downnn! Check out Hakim! (guy behind me) HAHA.  I miss these :D Currently attending Vj's Orientation :D & its power-pack Awesomeeeee mann! :D :D Tomorrow's our famous trad Vj mass dance at -- :D Haha, i wna update about the orientation, but not today. I shall hold my horses, cos i've cheered till my voice is hoarse. HAHA, okay, lame. I have manyyyy things to say though! I'll probably update on Sunday. For now, i have a special dedication. To the girl who rocks my butt- NURIN AMALIAAAAA!  She has feet that smells of flowers. HAHA! :D floral feet & she's nice enough to come watch our mass dance tmr. & watch someone else too. & i made her day today! so yay for nurin amaliaaaa! So i say! Nurin rocks my buttttt! HAHAHA (i have her drawing of it too, another day, heee:D ) -Random but im practicing saying names now, haha. Can't wait for the 14th! :) -5 days & couting. Its getting freakin way too often man. You get on my nerves & make my blood boil. I just can't help thinking it might be hatred. I see the connection on the obligatory level, but not on the emotional level anymore. Oops? i think not; you brought it on. Should have seen it coming. I've cried enough, you've spoilt enough days. Whats that coming over the hill, is it a monster, is it a monster!
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